Half a Decade.

*i was supposed to make this entry on sept 27, so as to make the title on the money. somehow, i cant wait, at least until midnight. so here i go.*

It was exactly 5 years ago, half a decade ago - September 27, 2003, that I told her that I'll be courting her. I remember telling her that over the phone at my room then at Project 8. I also remember Tita, her mom, warning her a week before that - "anak baka ikaw na ang nililigawan niyan."

It all started with me courting a classmate of ours. She was the one who was giving me advice and was the one pushing me to do things for that girl. I remember us talking for an hour or two over the phone about what happened that day, how she was, how I was, what should I do. Then, unknowingly, I fell for her.

It was an uphill climb, believe me. It was hard to prove myself, prove my worth to her. It  actualy took more than a year before we officially become a couple - October 9, 2004 - though I remember seeing their wall clock saying it was already 12:15am of October 10.

Then the rest was history.

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We'll be seeing each other and talking about what had happened and what will happen this coming Sunday - September 28 -  5 years plus a day after I told her that I will be courting her. I am anxious, to quote Kali, and these couple of days I've been sleepless. Though, I know where this will end, what she'll say, and what she'll do - based on what she has told me - I still cant prepare myself for that moment. The moment that I would hear it straight from her, not from blogs, quotes, or text messages not even from the "you deserve all of this, imon" kind of friend.

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Sunday. Half a decade after, it will all officially end. But I am still hopeful, still looking for that silver lining, a glint of hope, a small beam of light.

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Her family has been my second family here. After my mom and dad migrated to the US, her family has been my second home. Tita has been like a mother to me - commending me for doing things right, reprimanding me for doing things wrong. Her siblings have been kind to me, an understatement. I just hope i returned the favor to them somehow.

Thank you, Tita Bonn. Thanks Dea, Pepito, and Vanno.

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Half a decade...

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EDIT:

she just called a few minutes ago, we'll talk tomorrow. but she doesn't want me to talk with her mom...