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Saturday, June 30, 2007

Tonight We Dine in...

Sorrow.

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Tonight I Can Write [Pablo Neruda]
 
  Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, 'The night is starry
and the stars are blue and shiver in the distance.'

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is starry and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight tries to find her as though to bring her closer.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. As she was before my kisses.
Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.

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Emo mode na naman.

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It's the first day of the month. And unlike any other July's before, this year's July is special (or something like that).

  • 1st full month at work
  • 1st pay check
  • 1st UST game that I'll watch live after graduation (isipin mo na lang na tiger)
  • 1st July in Katipunan(!!!)
  • Release ng 10th edition
  • and if the rainy days decide to come early, I have to reroute going to work
  • Lalabas ba rin pala yung 7th book sa Harry Potter series (wooot~)
  • 2nd anniversary ng guild namin na Civitas Dei
  • birthday ng mom ko!
  • and hopefully, mapalitan ko na phone ko! hahaha

Sana maging swerte sa akin ang July na ito! Amf. 07/07/07 nga pala ngayon... hahaha.Sarap! Casino na!

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Free will.

Whoever invented it is either a genius or a damn fool.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Your Call [Second Serenade]

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

*got a mp3 copy here and a video link*

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Damn. T_T

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Incinerate

It has been almost two months since I "came back" to playing Magic: The Gathering TCG. After 8 years of hiatus.

And in 20 day's time, I'll be able to play (or cast!) again my second most favorite red spell, Incinerate (Next to Lightning Bolt). It would be reprinted in the next core set, the Tenth Edition. And it would be having black borders! So I guess my Block Red SLigh can now switch to Standard.

Anyway, I gave the title Incinerate because that's what I am feeling right now. Or to quote Jaya, "...toast is an appropriate description."

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It has been 3 long weeks since I entered the workforce. A blink of an eye turn around from a being a college slacker to a corporate slave, a happy-go-lucky a-hole to a lucky-to-be-awake-by-8-pm mofo. All in a series of strokes with my pen over a paper with the letterhead Citibank,N.A scribbling my signature Raymond Olgado. And right know, I felt I've sold my soul to the devil. And the devil came in the person of a beautiful lady who said to me, "This is a 9-5 job. After work, you don't have to think about anything else except play." Damn it. [To think I fell for the semantics. Wittgenstein would have killed me! (hahaha)] Nine to five job my ass! Every second seemed like an eternity in work.

But the devil's half truths are even worse. Pinaasa lang amf. After work, indeed, the only thing I think about is play, i.e., when the fuck can I play when I'm already tired and really to collapse on to my bed. I wish I could save my soul. But salvation comes in the form of a 50 grand bond. Good luck to my soul then. Salvation for now is not an option. And the Theory of No Choice tells me: magtrabaho ka na lang! Oh well, I guess I have to float around the Inferno's Second Circle, at least to pass time.

I do love my work, somehow. I guess I just have to look at it from another angle.

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Burnt out. My ash carried over yonder by the west wind.

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The thing I hate, though, about the stress that work brings is that it affects my personal life. When I signed that contract, I told myself, "taena ayos ito, may pang date na ako at pambili ng bulaklak para sa kanya." But three weeks later, there's no more Her. No one to buy flowers for, to watch the Simpsons movie with, to feast at Bellini's with, to hang out with. Damn. All this stress makes me do things I'm not supposed to do, or throw words which are not true at all. I guess this is what I got for selling my soul...

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I love you. Even though my heart is of stone.

Thursday, June 21, 2007

12th Floor

Floating in Eternity

Hope encased

In a glass room

Looking inside-out

 

Lights blinking

Lights blinding

Weary eyes

Of Hopelessness

 

Free Falling

Slow descent

To harsh reality

Hope Found, Love Lost.

 

Looking up

At the 12th floor

Love I found

Love I lost.

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Anti Burnt Out Party tomorrow. Yey! :)

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mag pagupit na kaya ako? *isip*

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Cheer...

Just got home from work.

While waiting for thr PC to start up, I can hear the drum beats from Ateneo's Babble. Experience tells me that a particular beat is the "Fabilioh"-thing, while another is the "Go 'Teneo".

At sa di inaasahang pagkakataon ay napangiti ako. Malapit na pala magsimula ang UAAP. Malapit ko na naman isigaw sa buong Araneta ang pagiging Tomasino ko. Hindi ko alam kung anong mangyayari sa kwento ng basketball team ng UST. Katulad noong isang taon na mala-Cinderella story ang nangyari sa koponan namin. Sarap alalahanin ng mga laro noon. Sana mag July 7 na! hahaha. First game ng UST.

BLACK GOLD! BLACK WHITE!

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

I've got

An icebox

 

where my heart used to be.

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Broken. Down. Stressed. Burned out. Slowly dying.

 

*edited: attached music*

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Badtrip!

*sigaw parang sa Lucky Me ad*

Malas. Bago pa lang pumasok sa trabaho ay naramdaman ko na may mali sa simula ng araw ko. Pagkadating ko sa opisina. Pooooooooooooooooooooooooooota! May exams nga pala kami ngayon (oo may exam kami sa work). Kaya ayun nga nangyari. Badtrip! 13/20. Lagas ang average ko. Kailangan kong makabawi. Pero andito pa rin ako sa harap ng PC, gumagawa ng blog entry.

Badtrip!

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Bakit kaya ganun ang ibang tao? Parang walang utang na loob? Sabihin na nagkusang loob ka na ngang tumulong, tapos siya pa ito yung kung mag utos ay parang binabayadan ka para mag trabaho. Mabuti pa aso, kahit mumu meron. Ako? Mura lang at sakit sa ulo.

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Nalunod ako sa ika-21 palagpag.

Nag dive ako sa maliit at mababaw na pool sa ika-21 palapag.

Langoy. Sisid. Hinga.

Ang ganda pala dito pag gabi. Kita ko ang mga ilaw ng mga gusali sa marikina, katipunan, libis, cubao at meron konti dun sa may makati ata yun. Ang lamig ng ihip ng hangin ay nabubura sa ligamgam ng tubig ng pool.

Hinga. Lutang. Tingin sa langit.

Ang ganda ng mga bituin. Lumulutang din sa kanilang maitim na dagat. Sarap sigurong sumama sa kanila. Sarap sigurong umalis na dito sa lupa.

Pikit ang mga mata. Lulubog. Dahan dahan.

Monday, June 11, 2007

Pink Wasabi @ Purple Haze "Sana"




Xiao: Vocalist
Kay: Guitarist / 2nd Vocals
Maru: Lead guitarist
Edward: Bassist
Ley: Drummer

SANA by Pink Wasabi @ Purple Haze last March9,2007 c/o Kermit Productions. Thanks to Mark and JP. And Glen, for taking teh video. =)

Boo, Maru you blew a note!

Check http://pinkwasabiband.multiply.com and add Pink Wasabi @ Friendster: pinkwasabimail@yahoo.com.ph =)

Ripped Off Ate Pol's Blog.

Aquarius Guy (January 21 - February 19) Looney Fashion Victim

Curiosity might have killed the cat, but it certainly made him fall for you. It doesn’t matter if you’re less than perfect in appearance, he will venture out to dissect you and your personality under a microscope. When he’s through analyzing you and his curiosity is satisfied, he will still love you, but in a manner that is more friendly than romantic. This guy may dress weirdly. This is brought on partly by his refusal to conform to the current fashion trends, and partly because he thinks it’s the way he should dress. He took care in picking his clothes and follows his own original style. This guy is eccentric, sometimes to outrageous degrees. He may space out during a conversation, just because something in that conversation triggered a mental adventure that he’d rather not share with anyone, lest they be shocked or think he’s crazy. Perhaps he is a little bit on the looney side, but for him, that’s normal and perhaps thinks that it’s the other way around; that the whole world is looney and he’s the only sane person living in it. He is also a genius, and his genius borders on the insane. He is a humanitarian and won’t let other people suffer when he can do something about it. His ideas are usually never-heard of and he’s quite proud of his ability to innovate schemes that seems too crazy to work, but they do. Any form of restriction and emotional suffocation will have him running from you fast.

In Love: He will let you have your way most of the time, just to avoid confrontations and arguments. See, when you don’t argue, he is free to think of other things. His imagination brings him to places that no one else has ever been in, and this originality will show in his sexual performance as well as date choices. He won’t force you to believe everything he says, but he will not let you bind him into your idea of a perfect boyfriend.

Polgara’s Quick Tip: When talking to him and he suddenly talks about something that’s completely out of topic, the best reply would be an amazed “Ooowws?”, rather than a sarcastic “d-uh?”. Don’t make the mistake of calling him weird when he goes to a date wearing mismatched clothing or he will make sure that the date becomes hell for you. Better yet, compliment his unique appearance. If you really can’t stand it, be resourceful in making him put on a jacket or changing his shirt to something that you just bought from a store.

Source: http://speedingdeath.blogs.friendster.com/

Makulay.

Ang buhay.

 

 

 

 

Makulay ang buhay...

 

 

 

 

 

Sa sinabawang gulay.

 

hahaha. tindi ng LSS ko dito!!!

Sunday, June 10, 2007

Sa bansa ng GI Joe

Kanina lamang ay inihatid namin ang kapatid ko sa airport. Siya ay aalis na ng bansa patungo sa bansa ng GI Joe at Power Rangers. Alas Diyes pa ang oras ng lipad niya, kaya malamang lamang ay naka tunganga pa yun sa may lounge at nag iisip ng kung anong gagawin niya sa deck ng M:TG niya. hahaha. Good luck sa 'yo. Salamat sa cell phone. :)

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Sarap umuwi sa Lipa. Kahit anong gawin, kahit ikut-ikutin ang mundo, pinakamalupit pa ring lugar sa buong Pilipinas ang bayan ng Lipa.

Ang kumontra, gumawa ka ng blog mo. hahaha.

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Independence Day sa 12, pero ang pinakamatalinong presidente ng Pilipinas (*sarcasm*) ay inilipat ang selebrasyon nito sa ika-11 ng buwan. Pota. Kabobohan! Ano kaya yun?! Pede na lang ipalipat lipat ang Independence day? Na pag exam, pede ang sagot ng bata eh, June 11? kasi dun ginanap yung holiday tapos yung araw ng holiday ang naalala nung bata. tangina. Lupit mo talaga hobbit!

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Game 2 bukas ng SA-Cle NBA finals. Hahaha. Alam ko na ang mananalo. :)

Friday, June 8, 2007

Ambitions... and uh, work (+ etc.)

(lol gulo ng title ko.)

Sa tuwing matatapos ang oras ng trabaho, natatawa ako sa sarili ko. Nasasabi ko sa sarili ko, "Lol. Nasan na si Wittgenstein ngayon?" (hahaha. private language. yun pala un.) Ang pilosopiya kong mahal, napalitan na ng fixed charges, rebates, at kung anu ano pa (vanilla silver card, please). Nagmuni muni tuloy ako, ano nga ba ambisyon ko nung bata pa ako?

Idol ko sa Einstein (hanggang ngayon). At dahil idol ko siya, lagi kong sinasabi sa klase na paglaki ko magiging siyentipiko ako. Buo ang loob kong maging alagad ng siyensiya dati. Sa katunayan, yung mga chemistry books ng tita ko na nakakalat eh binabasa ko, kahit di ko naiintindihan. Tapos pinagmamalaki ko sa mga kaklase ko na alam ko ang ibig sabihin ng E=mc^2 o ng Au o Ag. (hahahaha. natatawa ako ngayon) Pero nung dumating ang grade 4, tinanong ako ng kaklase ko, "ano naman iimbentuhin mo?" Amf. Gumuho mundo ko. Wala akong maisagot. Kaya ayun, paalam na siyensya.

Dun ko naisip na "mag pari kaya ako?" Hahahaha. Oo, naisip ko na tinawag nga ako ng Panginoon para maging pastol sa mga nawawala Niyang maging tupa. Kaya naging altar knight ako. Mula sa taga dala ng kandila hanggang sa taga insenso (oh yeah! ito ang kumbaga eh pinakamataas para sa akin noon), dinaan ko lahat ito. At noong high school nga, ako ay pumasok sa St. Francis de Sales Minor Seminary (proud to be Anakiko! ). Pero sa unang taon ko pa lang eh impyerno na ang nakita ko agad. Amf. Seniority todo todo. Katos, sigaw, mura, panglalait, at kung anu ano pa ang inabot ko (at yung mga kakalase ko) araw araw. Pero syempre, tingin ko dito ay pagsubok ng Diyos para malaman kung sino ang matatag sa mga maglilingkod. Kaya nung second year ako, bugbog todo todo inabot ko sa chapel araw araw (lol sa chapel pa nga). Gusto ko na sana umalis sa seminaryo, pero dito ko nakita ang isang minamahal ko... ang basketball.

Basketball ang pinakamalupit na imbensyon ng tao. Ganito ko kamahal ang basketball. Mula nung nag third year high school ako, eh bihirang bihira ako wala sa court, lalo na wala sa first ten na maglalaro. Tinoon ko ang sakit ng buhay seminaryo sa basketball. Oo, sobrang bobo ko sa basketball noon. Tapos ginawa ko pang idol eh si Iverson (lupit nya magdribble!) na rookie pa noon. Ayun nga, naging point guard kahit pang apat ako sa pinakamatangkad sa team. hahaha. Sabi ko sa sarili ko noon, "ako magiging pinakamagaling na basketball player sa buong Lipa. Panis sa akin mga taga La Salle at Canossa." Pero dahil nga nasa probinsya at bulok ang programa sa basketball dun, larong inter-tsinelas lang inabot ng istilo ng laro ko. Pero gusto ko pa rin maging sikat na basketball player, oo, hanggang ngayon. (ano?! one on one?)

Tapos nung pumasok sa UST. Gusto kong maging Philosophy professor, pero kung katotohanan lang ang gusto nyo marinig, gusto kong maging Dean ng AB. Kahit "slacker" at "puro basketball lang ang nasa utak" ko at "puro Dota ang inatupag" ay nakagraduate ako, at pinagmamalaki ko ang thesis ko. Nabuhayan ako ng loob kasi para bang malapit na matupad yung pangarap ko. Yun nga lang, wala akong pera pang MA. hahaha. Kaya eto ako ngayon. Citiphone Officer. Nag iipon para sa baon at pag aaral (syempre baon inuna ko, mahirap mag aral ng gutom).

I put my ambition on hold for the mean time. Grad School, magkikita din tayo. :)

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Pagod na pagod ako ngayon. Inikot ako ang boung Makati dahil sa putragis na bobong mapa na binigay sa akin ng clinic ng citibank. Kung sino man gumawa nun, sana mawala ka ngayong gabi. hahaha. Sa wakas, may SSS at TIN na ako. Oo nga pala, sa pag ikot ko sa Makati, napansin ko kung gaano kaganda ang Makati. Kung gaano kalayo ang pinagkaibahan nito sa Maynila (amoy maynila, sabi ni benjo).

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Panalo ang Spurs kanina. Di ako nagbigla. Spurs in 5 ako. Ito pala comment ko dun sa isang blogger...

boobie = piston "killer"
spurs not = piston
therefore... :)

Off shooting? or great D? Two entirely different things.

And yes, East conference (with the #1 at 50 wins) is waaaay different from the West (see: Dallas season wins). Sure LeBron can dance his way in the eastern conference(Washington without Agent 0?!), but not in the West (see: odds +7.5 ang Cavs, kung malakas nga ang Cavs it would have been lower. NB:odd ng Y!sports). Sige sabihin na natin na 2-0 ang season series ng Cle-SA in favor of Cavs pero kasabihan nga "the real season starts at playoffs" (see: Dallas Lose-ricks). The way that SA played kanina, ganun ang magiging laro nila sa series, with a few tweaks here and there. We cannot deny the fact that LeBron is still a one man team. Sure magandang panoorin ang style niya, pero walang nanalo sa flash lang, walang flash points sa stat sheet. SA is a TEAM in its purest sense. Well for the Cavs, until someone steps up, CONSISTENTLY, Cavs will always be a LBJ show.

Di ako maka Cavs (bullls ako sa east) or Spurs (Phx sa west) pero thats how i see things.

Fearless forecast: Spurs in 5. :) (game 4 ang pivotal game. if cavs doesn't win that game. see you next season na lang.)
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LBJ imho can be the next Jordan, the problem is there's still no "Pippen" :)

"It takes 5" sabi nga ng adidas. Ang feeling ni Lebron, ano siya si Diaz?! (hahahahaha)

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Cant wait for July. Cant wait for the paycheck. Cant wait for the first UST game. Go Tigers!

 

Monday, June 4, 2007

Wasted.

Umuwi akong gusgusin at pulang pula ang mata (dahil sa pagod). Ang lagkit ng balat ko, amoy pawis ang damit, at medyo naiinis dahil buka malamang ganito ulit ang hitsura ko pauwi.

Ito ang unang araw sa buhay trabaho ko. At ngayon pa lang, na-mimiss ko na ang pag aaral. Pero kailangan ko pang mag ipon para makapasok ulit ako sa graduate school pati baon ko dito ko pa kukuhanin. Amf. No pain, no gain.

Astig nga pala yung mga kasama ko sa trabaho. May kasama akong mommy na ang dalawa niyang anak at tomasino. Nagtrabaho siya before sa Epixtar bago siya lumipat sa citiphones, astig nga kasi 45 y/o na siya. Tapos may kasama din kami na 3 months nang pregnant, astig yung kasipagan niya, working preggy mom. Yung isa ko naman kasama ay nag handle dati ng accounts ng TFC, at naging team leader na din. Siya gagawin kong coach. Hahaha.

Lol. Wala lang. :)

Sunday, June 3, 2007

UAAP season 70

FIRST ROUND
JULY 7 - ARANETA COLISEUM
1 PM OPENING BY SANTO TOMAS
2 PM STATE U vs DE LA SALLE-MANILA
4 PM ADAMSON vs ATENEO DE MANILA

JULY 8 - ARANETA COLISEUM
2 PM FAR EASTERN vs NATIONAL U
4 PM EAST vs SANTO TOMAS

JULY 12 - CUNETA ASTRODOME
2 PM DE LA SALLE-MANILA vs ADAMSON
4 PM SANTO TOMAS vs FAR EASTERN

JULY 14 - CUNETA ASTRODOME
2 PM NATIONAL U vs EAST
4 PM ATENEO DE MANILA vs STATE U

JULY 15 - ARANETA COLISEUM
2 PM FAR EASTERN vs DE LA SALLE-MANILA
4 PM ADAMSON vs SANTO TOMAS

JULY 19 - ARANETA COLISEUM
2 PM STATE U vs NATIONAL U
4 PM EAST vs ATENEO DE MANILA

JULY 21 - CUNETA ASTRODOME
2 PM SANTO TOMAS vs STATE U
4 PM FAR EASTERN vs ADAMSON

JULY 22 - CUNETA ASTRODOME
2 PM ATENEO DE MANILA vs NATIONAL U
4 PM DE LA SALLE-MANILA vs EAST

JULY 26 - CUNETA ASTRODOME
2 PM ADAMSON vs NATIONAL U
4 PM STATE U vs EAST

JULY 28 - ARANETA COLISEUM
2 PM NATIONAL U vs SANTO TOMAS
4 PM ATENEO DE MANILA vs DE LA SALLE-MANILA

JULY 29 - CUNETA ASTRODOME
2 PM STATE U vs ADAMSON
4 PM EAST vs FAR EASTERN

AUGUST 2 - ARANETA COLISEUM
2 PM FAR EASTERN vs ATENEO DE MANILA
4 PM SANTO TOMAS vs DE LA SALLE-MANILA

AUGUST 4 - CUNETA ASTRODOME
2 PM DE LA SALLE-MANILA vs NATIONAL U
4 PM ADAMSON vs EAST

AUGUST 5 - ARANETA COLISEUM
2 PM FAR EASTERN vs STATE U
4 PM ATENEO DE MANILA vs SANTO TOMAS

END OF FIRST ROUND OF ELIMINATIONS

And Then...

...it came. Or to be exact, we came.

The men of 4Phl convened at Quattro last Firday night (PotC hang over, forgive me). It was purely accidental for most of us (kumuha pa ng reading si Jason sa 'Teneo law), but hey, there we are, throwing handshakes, banging bodies, exchanging oi's and tatay ka na's, telling the same stories, laughing at the same jokes, reminiscing basketball games, and drowning ourselves with booze.

Before I arrived at the place, I expected the whole class to be their, or most of the class, because Robert told me that everyone will be there (and that it was a UST uniform day!). But I soon found out that only the boys where to come (sana next time kasama na rin ung mga girls). When the get-together ended, it was agreed upon that there would be a monthly gathering. And the dates would be just be posted on the class' y!group. :)

So until next time.

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Damn. Monday. The 4th day of June. It'll be my first day of work, and I'm friggin' shaking right now. Excited? Nah. Nervous? A bit. I don't know what will happen at work, damn. Damn uncertainties.

But then again,they make life exciting. :)

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I should have failed Prac. Arts in grade school. My teacher would have killed me if he had seen me bury the nail with at plier. Well, at least I got to put together a study table.